Knitty Gritty Down 'n' Dirty

To new beginnings, even if it's a late start...

"Move Along"
-All American Rejects

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along



So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)




When everything is wrong, we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along




When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along

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or at least that's what everyone keeps telling me... and i am thankful, that i wasn't more injured or worse... and i must thank the two nice ladies who had stayed with me until the firemen came, Yvonne and Tori i think their names were, and the fireman who wiped my tears away and told me "there's no reason to cry"...
but i do miss carlos... who got towed to my work and is sitting there right now if anyone wants to see how smashed up he is... pics will follow...
I am less shaken up and less achey, still bruised, but i need to prepare myself for a suit that may be filed against me, all the while praying for a miracle...
I feel like a car accident is like a plague on a village barely supporting itself...
and so it goes, life.. it's true, the world does not stop for your pain, but neither should you...
anywho, enuf rambling...

Mar. 30, 2006, 9:30am

Out of everything and everyone, Carlos was always there, dependable, reliable, and steady. He took people places they would have never been able to physically reach themselves. He was the consistency that was much needed in the chaotic life of college and starting a job in the "real world". Although often taken for granted while being dragged through the mundane life of the working, he never failed to pull through to the end. He passed away shortly after an unfortunate accident in which he was hit on his right side. Dearly missed not only by the couple who knew him best, but by the quick acquaintances he met while aiding them in their time of need. As the thought of a replacement is unbearable, his partner of 2 1/2 years prays for his rebirth. Carlos was a gold sedan, of the Mitsubishi breed, a Galant ES type. May his pain be washed away with her sorrows.

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my bummy mood this past weekend summarized in one bittersweet song...

"Boston"
-Augustana

In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... you said...

You don't know me, you don't even care,
You don't know me, you don't wear my chains...

Essential and appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
You said...

You don't know me, you don't even care,
You don't know me, you don't wear my chains...

She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice...
Boston... where no one knows my name...

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"23"
-Jimmy Eat World

I felt for sure last night
That once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
I'm still driving away
And I'm sorry every day
I won't always love these selfish things
I won't always live...
Not stopping...

It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

Amazing still it seems
I'll be 23
I won't always love what I'll never have
I won't always live in my regrets

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

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quite possibly... as most ppl swear off Valentine's Day, in bitterness, or the commercialization thereof, I still enjoy the holiday, maybe just out of novelty =P and I was pleasantly startled by my "valentine" who actually is one of those ppl mentioned above but more about commercializing than bitterness (so i've been told), which has proven to me that nice things do happen when you don't expect them, want them nor need them... but i have to say, besides work, this past week has been a sweet one... i'd give anything to keep things the way they are... although i kno they won't, life's gotta have ups and downs, i pray that the decisions we make this weekend will lead to a week even remotely close to this one...
I hope everyone had a nice Valentines's, or just a nice week in general, it's never too late to love someone, (maybe a bit late for a gift) but never too late for love =P and I haven't felt this loved in awhile...

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I do believe the Chinese started the calendar first,... so technically it's the offical new year's eve today =P i've always set the two apart (american and chinese) as one for "couples" and the other for family...
hanging out wit family's been a nice break, from work, from everything... and as i test my sister's piano skills as new year's eve passes, i find i've missed my family more than i kno... so it's time for some "Erica says..."

Us three siblings went out to eat lunch with our dad, we decided on hawaiian bbq and we all got more than we could handle, as my brother picks at the last of his food, my dad tells him to finish it, so Erica shouts, "Eat you chicken! oh, i mean, eat your POULTRY!" I go, "oooh, your using big words now huh?" Erica says, "yeah! wait... Chicken is bigger than poultry..."

As Julie and I are rummaging around Forever 21, Julie picks out a shirt and asks me, "What do u think?" Erica replies for me, "It looks old." I tell her, "It's not old it's vintage." I then found a cute shirt to hold on to. Two minutes and another shirt critique later, I shout "Where'd my shirt go?!" waving my hands about. Erica pulls it off my shoulder and hands it to me. "Your getting old," she says. "I'm not old," I protest. "Fine, your vintage," she replies.

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